Friday, July 27, 2012

Thank You State of North Carolina

Thank you to the legislature of NC for my additional five days of vacation for 2012-2013.  This gives me five additional days of paid maternity leave!!

Daren and I head to Iowa this evening for All Inclusive Vacation II with my family. We rented a house at the Iowa lakes from Sunday to Sunday. I'm excited to do nothing but float in the lake, play with my nieces and nephew, and watch the Olympics.

Maybe my 25 week picture will be a bikini shot. I'm sure you all wish.

Friday, July 20, 2012

23 Weeks

Bean is now approximately the size of a grapefruit and I am approximately five pounds heavier than Daren.

23 weeks
Last night I attempted to do some maternity clothes shopping at Old Navy and Target. I need work appropriate capri pants for UNC. It was a failure at both stores. The Old Navy at Southpoint is the only one in the district which does not carry maternity clothes. Target had maternity clothes...but not what I was looking for.

Sunday, July 15, 2012

Second Anatomy Scan

Friday the 13th was Bean's second anatomy scan. The focus of the day was the normal sizing and general anatomy of baby Bean, but also to check on the heart and kidneys since they couldn't get a good look at them in the earlier scan. So, after taking lots of pictures and measurements, the ultrasound tech told us to hang tight and the doctor should be in shortly after taking a look at the images. That wait took much longer than expected, but while waiting we got the call from the geneticist with the results of the second round of chromosome testing - everything came back normal. Good news! Finally, the doctor came into the room and filled us in that the heart and kidneys look good. So, it looks like with any luck the om is the only issue on the table, which the tech did show us during the ultrasound. (This very dry recap was brought to you by Daren).

My advice to all first time moms - go to the bathroom before the start of the u/s. The darn things take forever if the baby doesn't cooperate AND they really push hard with the wand. I'm slightly embarrassed to say I also may have drifted off once or twice during the scan. I think the coaches workout from Thursday was still kicking my tail.

Bean remains our team green surprise.  The tech asked if we were having a boy or a girl. We let her know that we were going the surprise route. She had us turn our heads while taking measurements of the femur so we wouldn't see a vienna sausage or the lack thereof.

This afternoon/evening we filled in our family members with the happenings of the past month. It was hard to tell them we didn't have a whole lot of answers. Many of those answers won't come until Bean is born.

Our next appointment is August 10th. At that point I will be 26 weeks. In the coming days we are to expect a call from one of the hospital's case workers who will be assigned to our case. The case worker will coordinate our NICU visits and meetings with the future surgeons.

Monday, July 9, 2012

21 Weeks

21 weeks
I apologize for the scary smile. Daren didn't let me take a look at the picture. We were running out the door to a neighborhood pool party. I asked did you get a good pic? Daren responded, yup. There goes that trust.

Thursday, July 5, 2012

Words on a Screen

I feel like I've gotten my emotions in check concerning baby Bean and the unknown. I'm able to talk about how I'm feeling and even plan for the future. Sometimes my strong facade cracks and I know that is okay. Last Sunday during church was one of those times. I think we sang two or three songs before some words appeared on the screen. This was one of the many times I'm thankful my husband carries a hankie. I've italicized the words which brought out the waterworks.

In a thousand ways our minds are trying to flee this moment.
Unresolved conflict with loved one.
Deadlines and demands.
Hopes and dreams that seem to have outpaced us.
For many of us it takes only a key word to launch our minds into every moment but this one.

We're sitting here. And yet we are somewhere else.



Pause a moment.



Breathe deeply.


Believe, if for just a moment that our worrying, our preoccupations, our distractions and anxieties are not a solution. They offer little if any benefit.
They're simply noise.


Yesterday is gone. Tomorrow will be there with or without us.


Right now, let us embrace God in our midst. The God who invites us to be here, with him and each other, alive in grace and peace.


Welcome to this moment.  


I asked Daren to contact the church to get the text shown on the screens. I love what came after the portion I italicized. I was a bit consumed on that Sunday to see the final portion.  It is hard to explain how deeply this affected me. I know I will worry...that is what moms do. I also need to realize I am a child of God and we will get through this.

Text written by Pastor Steve Daugherty, Crosspointe Community Church - Cary, NC






Monday, July 2, 2012

First Piece of Good News

The amnio results came back all clear. No chromosome additions or deletions. Happy dance!!!!!!